Good time to write again.

             So, I realize it's been a really long time since I've made my last post ...
                           I mean,
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While, I know that I originally created this blog a couple of years ago for my English class, I found my self thinking recently
Why the heck not?

It just feels like a good time to start writing again. I have so many thoughts bumbling around in my head and, like I said, it's been a long time so a lot has happened in my life in two years.

Question is... where do I start?

Well, I suppose the most obvious place to start is right now, here in my present moment.

I'm in love.

Not just the dreamy kind of love, where you pick a flower and hope somehow that by pulling off the petals you'll find out if your feelings are reciprocal, either.
I've been in this relationship for a little over nine months now and we are very much in love.
It's the heart pounding inside of your chest kind.
The you forget to breath kind.
The whole world slows down a little when you think about them kind of love.
It's a tough love, where we can challenge each other with the truth kind of love.
It's the even get mad and yell once in a blue moon kind
but still stubbornly stick though it and talk and figure it out kind.
It's the committed kind of love.
Talks of getting married kind of love and living life
and living out our callings in life together kind of love.
It's also the kind of love that is hard to share with others
because they can't see our relationship very easily.

Unfortunately, ours is a long distance kind of relationship.
This means that even though we have quite a few large miles between us and a two hour time difference, we decided that the feelings we had for one another were worth fostering and exploring a bit farther.
It means we have had to be creative in furthering our relationship. We rely a lot on technology to help us feel close.

This includes Skype visits, hours upon hours at a time... when the service is working, Avocado the couple's messaging app sharing lots and lots of pictures/videos/adorable emoticons,tons of text messaging and cell phone calls, hours upon hours in total.

Let me back up a minute here to interject for a moment to clarify some possible questions one might have at this point. Yes, I have met this guy in person. No, it was not though social media. Yes, we have mutual friends who know us both. Yes, in fact, we met through one of our closest friends who are a married couple. And yes, believe me, I made sure to pick their brain about the guy before I ever signed up for a relationship of this nature.

His family is in the same town as mine and even though we grew up in the same, fairly large city, our families went to the same church growing up.
You could say we were raised with the same values. So we have a lot in common. We're both pretty convinced that our families are going to accept the other and ... ... ... ... ... that's just it isn't it?

I'm afraid of what might happen if my family doesn't accept him.
I'm afraid of what they will do if they don't approve of him to be with me.
And I don't know quite what to do with that idea. That seems to be one of the ideas that is holding me back at the moment.

however, I happen to be feeling very sleepy at this particular moment. Perhaps, this is a good spot to pause
take a break
and come back later on
tomorrow.